I've been in a black hole and I had no idea how to break out, and still I am sitting here, trying to get out.
photography always helped me to feel better, to find myself, to understand myself and my emotions, but every time I picked up my camera it felt like this connection was gone, that I had no idea what I was about to do. so every time I picked up my camera I was unsatisfied with the outcome and in the end with my whole being.
photography always helped me to feel better, to find myself, to understand myself and my emotions, but every time I picked up my camera it felt like this connection was gone, that I had no idea what I was about to do. so every time I picked up my camera I was unsatisfied with the outcome and in the end with my whole being.
I also didn't know where I was going with my art and with my life. it seemed that I almost forgot how to take photos, how to express myself because I was taught differently in university and I got quite frustrated about the fact that I should rather try to improve my skills but then I start to ignore everything else and do nothing.
so I have been stumbling around for quite a while now, not knowing what would happen or what would not happen.
I lost something, inside of myself and I wasn't capable to get it back.
so I have been stumbling around for quite a while now, not knowing what would happen or what would not happen.
I lost something, inside of myself and I wasn't capable to get it back.
I tried and tried, and then I gave up.
for such a long time I haven't taken any photos, nor did any other art I appreciated. I was just there, trying to breath and trying to focus on anything that is not me.
for such a long time I haven't taken any photos, nor did any other art I appreciated. I was just there, trying to breath and trying to focus on anything that is not me.
and it is kind of ironic that I picked up my camera on that day I felt miserable about my life and my achievements, and it's even more ironic that I actually liked what I did. it was almost surreal to me that I finally did something I enjoyed again and I did something that expressed my feelings and everything I had on my mind for such a long time but couldn't let out because it was stuck.
I'm still sitting in that hole, but I can finally see light again.